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the horror of it all [Jan. 9th, 2006|04:20 pm]
Spinning 45 Ballerina
Today, easily the worst day of the year. I'm going back to my half ass student existence. Sitting on the bus on my way home again after the horrible joy-killing info meeting I saw the sky turn gray and massive, there was no horizon, just this massive unbroken wall off oblivion. In the trees on a hill there where hundreds of black and gray crows, just sitting there looking sinister. The whole thing was so goth I nearly gave birth to the antichrist. Wherry omenish.

I really don't want to do this, I just want to be famous and beautiful, not study boring stuff and stay gray and cold in this wicked place. Now I'm going to sign up for the semester on the internet and the angst is killing me. Studying all the stuff around it is the one thing that can make me feel this bad, I hate it, I hate not having any control. I wish I could still handle boredom, and I wish i had a plan with my life. Bah!!! >.

[User Picture]From: dustbinflower
2006-01-09 07:17 pm (UTC)
weee! vi kan være rike og berømte sammen? du slipper iallefall å vaske dassen etter barnehagekids, hvis det er noen trøst.. hihi. og snart kan du komme opp til meg etter forelesningsskit og klage på nordnes? yes?
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