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an object of your affection. [Jan. 18th, 2008|06:41 pm]
Spinning 45 Ballerina
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[Current Location |computer room 322, hf]
[Current Music |bauhaus]

I once read this interview with Uma Thurman in some girly mag where she said that she was still loved all the men she had ever fallen in love with. I identified. I’ve spent so much time being happy about the fact that I’m not with my ex-boyfriend anymore that I somehow forgot to really think that I just might still love him (I don't). I’m twenty two and I’ve not had a relationship since my teens. It’s been more than two years since I was having sex regularly. It’s been good really, a lot less stress and to little heart ache to speak of. I’ve not had the chance to be unfaithful or to be cheated on. The green eyed monster has rarely been seen these passed years. The only way I tried getting back at him for dumping on me has been going out, meeting new people and partying. (This is the guy who fell a sleep on my while we where clubbing, he never really got my sceenster side, (good for him really.)) The last time I had a crush on some one I got crushed. Back then I cried one night because I remembered this thing with my ex.
I said “I love you’re smile, you’re always smiling”. (Never really got around to telling him I loved him, but that doesn’t matter, I told him I loved so many things about him that he at least should have gotten the picture.) He said “what do you mean, I hardly ever smile.” I didn’t think about it again, but the next time we got together he said. “you know, I asked my friends, and they told me I hardly ever smile.” “Weird” I told him and smiled at him, and he said ”I guess it’s you who’s making me smile”. Kiss kiss, lovers stuff. I cried than because I realized I wasn’t the one who made him smile, it was this person who I don’t even know. My good sides I guess, but not me. The girlfriend thing, the lovers thing, not reality and personality but the cheap thing people have the nerve calling love. But heck, he fell a sleep while partying, there was no future there. I’m glad. I should become a person who loves to many things, and to many people for someone to ever make me into that franken-girlfriend again.
I got picked up the day before yesterday while heaving this discussion about love with Ingvild and Kine. That is a good thing, no matter what, I’m sure of it. I’m not much good as a female, I’m no good as an object of affection. I hope it’s because of all the things I’ve guessed, regarding boys and girls.


You’ve died inside, waiting, but now I have a new camera, so finally, this is a picture post.
The people I love, the people I’ve met, my beautiful face and Thale all dressed up in the garden:



jam at vågen
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Kine

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Cisse and Marianne

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erlend øye singing the smiths

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at vamoose

norsk respons
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Charlotte in flight

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Simon Ivan

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townies
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wilde man

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some lydia and maria at legal

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kent and asbjørn

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karina and vilde

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vilde, marte, solveig, vang

ego picts
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life imitating art

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oh nose nose hair

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my shoosies

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me and her

carnival pleasures
feat. Thale Carnivale
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dans la jardain

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[User Picture]From: lazerkid
2008-01-21 08:15 pm (UTC)
det virker sansynlig at jeg går glipp av noe vesentlig ettersom man ikke lenger får lyd på pcene på hf. når jeg får nett oh ny laptop skal det nok bli andre boller. deilig homoerotisk foreløbig iaf.
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From: (Anonymous)
2008-01-21 08:05 pm (UTC)

fra Budapest

Øye på Vågen!?! I missed it...?

Er syk. Leser organisk kjemi. Har en eksamen til etter det, og så skal vi leie bil og kjøre til det mest spennende i nærheten av Ungarn. Jeg holder en knapp på å dra sørover... Gleder meg til å bli ferdig med å sitte inne i ullsokker og pugge formler and all sorts of (useful) crap.

Hvordan går det med de? workin nine to five?

Hugs

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[User Picture]From: lazerkid
2008-01-21 08:17 pm (UTC)

Re: fra Budapest

øl på vågen! det er for å si det mildt noe jeg er overveldet over. foreløbig har jeg bare benyttet meg av det en gang da... jobber lite, soser mye, er snart blakk og ser ingen bedring i horisonten. skal ikke leie noen bil til varmere strøk, men i februar skal jeg og lotte til oslo og se the cure. true blue. du må fare forsiktig og gå i fred!
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From: skylarbeibi
2008-01-28 02:13 pm (UTC)
hei kjempefine bilder!spent på bildene fra lørdag jeg-husket nå at du sa du skulle legge dem ut her:)
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[User Picture]From: greenbadger
2008-02-12 09:23 pm (UTC)
du må alltid ha sånn lugg.åå
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